Shards

The sum of my parts

Is comprised of tainted glass

An evil born from actions made

Long buried in the past

The karmic weight like poison spreads

Black tendrils from my heart

To lovers, family, friends and self

Unfettered choices from the start

I was blind and deaf to cries

Which screamed within my ear

Smiling at the pearly gates

Of heaven built from tears

But finally someone broke my spells

And struck me at my core

Shattered in an instant act

My tiny shards now hit the floor

I raged in my destruction

As I stooped to scoop me up

But recoiled, at a touch

As blood revealed the cut

I felt it then, within my flesh

The pieces of my sin

The bits of me too sharp and dark

To pick back up again

As I recoiled in my pain

I saw the picture as a whole

It’s then that I decided

I’d already paid my toll

So I ignored those tarnished parts

As I constructed me anew

Carefully choosing who I’d be

Applying thick the glue

Now I feel a stronger man

Built of better stuff

Though paradise is lost to me

It’ll have to be enough