Self-Esteem

I don't know what to do.

How do I survive?

How do I live with this thing

that is eating me alive?

My soul just wants peace and happiness,

wants to thrive

But nothing is working

I can't describe how it feels

all the lies and fake smiles

trying to hide behind these eyes

Look deeper, inside you might see

That someone is broken, that someone is me

And when will I ever be free?

There you stand, collecting my misery

There you stand, choking all my sanity

I wish you could express to me

What it is that's bothering you

Why you have chosen this path, so blue

After all my trying to help you

And I'm the one sitting here lost and confused

Trying to chew on this piece of reality

Physically I'm sick, mentally in pain

Just trying to help cheer you up again

But I can't I can't

This is my last stand

I'm so completely over holding your hand

I can't take anymore, and I do feel regret,

But this? This storm is your own;

You must face it alone,

And you might not face it till' you're grown

But maybe, just maybe you'll start to see

When you think of your life,

When you think of me,

I hope one day you will remember

That someone stood up for you

Someone caring, someone brave, someone true,

Someone that will always understand, too.

Now you are back where you belong

I knew that you were with me all along.

My self-esteem is a beautiful melody,

a long forgotten song all about me.

Today it's not as much of a mystery

Because I love myself now, you see?

The pain is gone, my soul is finally set free.

And that is more than good enough for me.