Search Of The Soul

Search of the Soul By ~Karen Carrington~

You know life just passes by. Constantly I stop and ask myself why. “Why” is the question that swims within my soul. Why am I so deep? Caught up in gaining control. Control of my life. Control of me. I sit and I ponder on my ever sought goals. What are the reasons of why I’m not yet in control? I need to search I need to find. Why it is I’m unable to see. The thoughts on why I cannot be....Totally satisfied with what you’ve given me. Is it unhappiness, is it relief? The answers to my questions are only in grief. Denial to the fact I’m not believing in me. Blind to the fact that I’m unable to see. What it is everyone else sees. So rare, so unique. So passionate, yet so incomplete. Until I believe, that I am what I be. I fail to realize that it is what I see. I wanna stop allowing the negative that brings me down. I want to stop letting thoughts make my life go round. It’s not about “them” it’s all about me. Feeling so totally overwhelmed with all that’s going on. To be so young, yet be so strong.