I am scared of the world, of what it is and what it offers.
I am afraid of life, to go out and be myself;
Because I am to concerned about failing.
I know to little of what goes on behond the walls of my bedroom,
Which is why it is there I stay for majority of my days.
Trapped, confused and overthinking.
What shocked me the most, is that I believed I could rely on people!
But when I fell and hit rock bottom,
All I saw was myself.
Laying in the dark, searching for someone to say, ”Take my hand.”
Yet, there was no one.
It hurt to realize, I am alone in this world
And left to face life’s challenges
All on my own once again.
(Please don’t forget to tell me what you think)
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