Romanticizing Rain

Maybe the rain is there

To romanticize sadness

So you don’t have to become it

So you don’t drown in it

It greets me like a child reaches a grave

Confused at the great sadness it feels

Hopeful that the moment will pass

Unknowing of how to move forward

I can’t keep coming back to the rain like this

I want to just watch it pour and see the flowers bloom

And get lost in the colours

But how do you explain

When you look at the rain and just feel the grey

Feel the dullness

The deep lull

the sorrow

Maybe I have to feel this

In order to push past it

In order to not fall

Like it does

The sun creeps in

But I’m not ready yet

How can I let her in

If I am frozen shut

I need to hurt more

I need to romanticize the rain a bit more

I need more time