Reality Check

When reality knocked on my door

I was about 17 years old

On that tight rope to success

When it tipped me over

I fell,

Right into the arms of reality

I let it hug me, consume me

It whispered right into my ears

and blew out what little fire I had

It broke right through me

Letting the pieces scatter

The dreams and desires I once had

and disintegrated like ash

Than my best friend came banging through

They were a paramount problem solver

Yet, with reality still holding me

Used gravity to drag me down further

Ripping the mask on my once dear friend

Revealing its true beast

Sunken eyes, thick skinned and rimmed with blood lust

My right hand man had turned against me

What I once thought was natural

turned out to be the abnormal.

I would be deemed a freak

but I kept quiet

Accepted its flaws and let its teeth sink right through me

Reality let go, bored at the slab of meat it held

Given up at the potential

And now I slipped right into my dear beast

To say the least, it felt the same

Metal on skin

Hands gripping neck

Numb

If I was strong enough, I would accept more of its gifts

If I wished hard enough, I would let go of my fear

If I begged just enough, it would devour me