Questions

Growing slowly inside the womb of my white mother. I had a dad who never showed up. He left her alone with two babies inside her stomach, whatever his excuse was. I didn’t know yet what was going to happen to me, or my twin brother. But later in life I would soon find out. I just didn’t know that I would have SO MANY.... Questions.

I got handed over to a stranger’s arms. I never knew that this stranger would be my new mother. She’s mixed, and married to a black man. Who would be my new dad, a father figure. I was welcomed to the world after my twin brother, who wasn’t as much a stranger to me. Later in life I would soon find out who the stranger were. I just didn’t know that I would have SO MANY....Questions.

Taken again from what my life was going to be. Taken away from Charlotte. Taken towards Durham. My new family was waiting....waiting....waiting for our arrival. Our new life has started from the beginning. We were clueless. Later in life I would soon know that it was supposed to be different. I just didn’t know that I would have SO MANY....Questions.

I grew up as a normal child surrounded by toys and friends. Watching Hannah Montana, iCarly, The Suite Life of Zack & Cody. Running at recess and playing on the swings. This whole time I had been living through a childhood I might not have gotten before the strangers came along. Later in life I would soon know the truth. I just didn’t know that I would have SO MANY....Questions.

As I grew older and older I finally knew. I knew that this wasn’t going to be the life I was supposed to live. Or maybe....just maybe I was supposed to live it this way.

The mother that birthed me turned into the stranger. She was the lady that never got a chance to teach me....to teach me how to be a girl in this judgmental world. Full of haters and jealousy that can surround you and haunt you. I never got that chance, that chance to have a mother daughter relationship with the lady who gave me life. Her name is Susan.

I have an older brother. His name is Isaiah. I just hope to find them and to meet my family, my blood. I just want to know the truth. I want to be able to answer the question, “Where do you come from?”. I don’t know much. I want to know more. I just never know that I would have SO MANY....Questions.