Push

you see we all feel that agony pulling at us, we are all tiny crying children masquerading as big tough adults

We all seek comfort in each other’s lives

To catch a glimpse that maybe we are all not as perfect as we pretend

We can cry in front of each other in a restaurant

And hold each other’s hands,

And we can build each other up.

We all feel like we are sinking into in a catastrophe

A cataclysmic end

That never truly occurs,

Because life keeps severing your mind

Sun slivers the agony into cold night

And moon paints depth with longing and loneliness into a dusty, deep, gasping morning

I’m pushed to not feel the strings attached to my heart

To my hands

Pulling me

The agony that is so painful

Tearing me to streaks, to threads

I long to just hear your voice,

But I hear distorted sounds like screeches and pulling limbs

My migraines are seeping into my ears

My nightmares are only in the day

And my dreams are surreal and keep me alive at night.