promise me

I wish he kept his promise to be the person that he said he would be after every argument

I wish he gave me the love that he claimed he would give after every argument

but he never did

instead he fed me with sweet lies and cooked promises

pretending to be someone he had no intention of ever being

whenever he’s sorry I keep going back to him to a place that brings me home because I refuse to hold on

I find myself going back to his arms while he gives me every reason to leave

I am so frightened of being alone forever but he promises me the world and even though I know he’s a liar I still go back again