Pretty or easy?

i saw a girl from the past a few weeks ago

she asked me the question below

“am i pretty? or am i just easy?

i wonder if it is my body or my personality”

she proceeded to tell me from her point of view…

everything that she has been through

“i crave any kind of attention

whilst ignoring all of their intentions

this is how i can get any guy

they do not even have to work hard for me *sigh*”

i decided to give my opinion

that she is one in a million

but she just disagrees

when she is older she will see what we see

we have been talking for a while since

she carries on telling me what she thinks

“my body count defines me

it was put there to remind me

i will never be girlfriend material

my body needs a whole clean with antibacterial

because now i am unsanitary

the word “no” is not in my vocabulary

who would want a girl who is so deeply broken?

and who would want a girl who has her legs always open?

i just want someone to forever be with me

am i pretty? or am i just easy?”

i try to answer her question as honestly as i can

but at the same time trying to understand

see, i wished she knew this long ago

how quick boys will come and go

around she gets thrown

because she hates the feeling of being alone

constantly putting herself in danger

as night comes bringing home another stranger

she is an over thinker

falls in love with a click of the finger

convinces herself there is a deep connection

her biggest fear is rejection

the truth? she cannot stand it

her self respect has vanished

it is clear that she knows this

but either way she still cannot resist

persistently she gets judged

because she craves to just be loved

and in the end she is left only with pain and no pleasure

she is always their trash, but never treasure