Perfect Disguise
Mental Health Awareness
I'll make myself look pretty
Make like I'm actually happy
You'll believe me when I smile
You'll think that it's actually real
~
But inside I'll be dying
Even my pores will be crying
When the door is closed I'll fall apart
Tear my skin open like it's nothing
~
But when the door opens
I'll be smiling
I'll laugh so loud that
Everyone sees me
Believing my life is amazing
Thinking everything is gravy
~
It will be so deceiving
Nobody will ever know
Not a single person will have a clue
That I already killed myself
And what they see
Is a skin of deceitfulness and lies
~
A petty hate will fill their eyes
Jealousy of the beautiful disguise will be arye
They'll call me names
Try tear me down
~
But what they don't realize is
I've already hit the ground
Yet I walk with pride
Heads up, perfect stride
Confidence overruling
What can't be denied
~
My past haunts me
My future taunts me
And my present laughs as I'm walking
~
Girls are envious
Guys are obnoxious
And when I reject them
They call me a slut
But if I were a slut
Wouldn't I sleep with them
Say yes to every guy that approaches
~
So contradicting
My conscious is shifting
I'm a bitch so they don't take advantage
But nobody understands this
~
They try to call me out
Try filling my mind with doubt
But my demons already have full control
The only one left
Who can destroy me now
Is myself
~
So, I'll avoid being alone
I'll party all night long
I'll be with my friends
Till the sun comes up
~
Yet, there is something
I don't want to be here
Isn't that clear?
Or did I forget
Nobody knows what actually haunts me...
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- Challenge: Masks We Wear
About the Creator
Tanya Lei
A poet, if nothing else.
In a blank space, captivating words flow freely to create something that has not existed before.
From my mind, to yours.
https://www.instagram.com/soulpaintedart/
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Standing While Falling
Quotation from Friedrich Nietzsche "He who wrestles long with monsters should beware lest he himself become a monster. And if you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss also gazes into you. Man is not destroyed by suffering, but by the meaning he makes of it."
By LUCCIAN LAYTH4 days ago in Critique
Comments (3)
The fact that they don't know you've already hit the ground or already killed yourself is sooo heartbreaking. I know this is for that challenge but I'm so sorry if it's based on your experience 🥺❤️
I love the tone in this one. Like the way you turn 'happiness' and being 'pretty' against each other. 'Tear my skin open like it's nothing' I feel you ripped your heart open to write such a powerful line. I love that when the door finally opens again. You will laugh hard. Because that shows to us the reader that it's fake. The loudness of it. I absolutely love this line. 'thinking everything is gravy'. Damn. 'that I already killed myself'. 😲 Oh my gosh. I didn't expect to be sliced Into two the more I read. That's a good thing. But I feel this as if I am seeing through your eyes and feeling through your body. 'but if I were a slut, wouldn't I sleep with them' that was a good comeback. 'The only one left who can destroy me now is myself' 🤯 👌🏾👏🏾 If nobody knows, than I, Caitlin, knows now. Fantastic and original words Tanya 👏🏾🤗❤️
This one's really good! Now party all night long with me