Parental Love Spurned

Sleep disturbed slumber,

As you wander freely through my brain,

Memories of golden moments,

Now turned sour, humbled and retained.

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Tossing and turning between years wasted,

And wise lessons learned,

My love was a given, yours forever,

Until you cut the strings, forever burned.

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Pretension is not my style,

I find it difficult to say the least,

But I’m soon discovering you’re a master at deception,

A full blown camouflaged beast.

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The world suddenly stopped turning,

Stalled, frozen into a backwards slide,

Life is little tougher, my security released,

And I now want for nothing more than to hide.

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A protection barrier has been raised,

Halfway between you and I,

Again a ring around my abode,

And once more around my heart, as we welcome that goodbye.

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I did all that I could,

For my wrongs I apologise,

My mistakes were made with love,

Not that you’ll forgive now the end is near, my heart bleeds as it cries.

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One day you’ll experience the same,

And a light bulb moment will click within your head,

I can but imagine the song of regret,

You’ll want to reach out but find I’ve disappeared instead.

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I wish for you much love and happiness,

Although I’m not sure the decisions you’ve made are the best,

But you’ve made your bed, it’s your lesson to learn,

You’ve chosen a deceptively feathered nest.

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I’ll bow from the centre stage,

Acting is not within my repertoire,

I much prefer the role of audience member,

Leaving you in your forte as the shining star.

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Kiss that little boy inside one last time on my behalf,

He was my treasure, my pride and joy,

Giving me many moments to live on in my memories,

As once he was such a delightful little boy.

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The days run over, the sun still sets,

And when it does rise once more, my eyes bleary,

Lack of sleep, full of worries,

I’ll draw on those memories when I’m teary.

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Please honour me now with your silence,

Leave me with what little I have that remains,

I understand the best is over,

Memories now residing in heartfelt frames.

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Fly free on wings of wisdom,

Don’t treat anyone else in this way,

They’ll never forgive like I will,

But that doesn’t mean I can smile and stay.

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The final bell has tolled,

You’ve yet to learn the harshness of parenthood,

Oh, to be that fly upon the wall,

When you realise that you really had it good.

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I wish for you one that is born of your cloth,

To teach you the same lessons I had to once learn,

The difference being I want it to bring you forever love,

And hope you never feel this feeling of parental love spurned.

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