One For The Ages

I found the balance in myself that I longed for,

It fills the void in my heart that once existed.

I waited for so long that I was starting to feel it in my core,

But now that I have it everything in my life is all twisted.

The exertion that I put myself through left me restless,

From my own constant battles to losing my Dear Great Grandmother,

I came face to face with my own Deep Abyss,

I couldn't escape my own mind & fell victim to myself like all the others.

But the worse was yet to come,

Because of my own foolish actions.

I lost my Soulmate in life forever for my own to succumb,

Nothing was more tragic because I just didn't understand the warning or see the caution.

I know there's nothing I can do to change anything,

But Lord Knows the I wish I could.

I destroyed my relationship & lost my family,

All because I didn't comprehend where in life I stood.

I don't deserve all of the blessings that God has taken away,

So I just sit alone at night letting the pain ache.

I wasted all the values in my life so today is just another day,

I am not worthy of such things because all I do is take.

As of today I finally accept my loss,

& I finally take my place of one of the many stages.

The pain is agony but it doesn't suffice for all that I gained & tossed,

So with this I guess you could say it's One For The Ages.