Number Two
Makes you feel like $***
Hey..
Can I..
"No, let's do this for HER instead."
Oh,
Wouldn't it be nice to..
"Oh, what would HE want?"
"What would they prefer?"
"We have to make sure he is comfortable."
"Let's cook what she likes."
"You have to do this for everybody!"
The words that this girl has to hear...
This girl who...
Drives herself around,
Even with the option to NOT be the driver.
Serves others food first,
Even though she's the hungriest.
Orders her own birthday cake.
Fixes her own problems.
Puts everyone else.
FIRST.
Because she is...
SECOND.
In everyone else's life.
Sometimes...
A number even further down the line.
Prioritise me no more.
For I now don't even care.
I crave to be ZERO.
So that I can be like you...
Self-centered.
Selfish.
So I don't have to care...
I can stay
NOTHING
Because having been number two
All my life
In everyone's lives
Is not something I want
Or accept
Anymore.
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Manisha Dhalani
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Standing While Falling
Quotation from Friedrich Nietzsche "He who wrestles long with monsters should beware lest he himself become a monster. And if you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss also gazes into you. Man is not destroyed by suffering, but by the meaning he makes of it."
By LUCCIAN LAYTH4 days ago in Critique
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I’m glad you are standing up for yourself! Great poem! 💖
You treated a $hitty situation with a great sense of humour! Lovely, personal writing :)
Back to say congratulations on your Top Story! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
Your words convey a profound sense of longing, amazing, love it, thanks for sharing!
Congrats on TA! I’m sorry if this is true in your life. You are number one! Sign your stories with Number One after them🤗
congrats on TS. my sister always made sure she was number one ... she pushed so hard, she pushed people away. sad.
You are always number 1️⃣ just make sure everyone knows it!
Congrats on the TS. yes, time to look after yourself. Be number one.
Congrats on top story! I too prioritise other people first, as does my partner, we're slowly learning to adapt ourselves together and learn how and when to prioritise ourselves!
Congrats on Top Story, Manisha!
sad poem.. good written
It's hard to learn to value yourself when others put you second.
I mean, technically, number 2 is poop, so that explains why it feels like shit, lol. Jokes aside, it's exhausting to always put others first when we're not and would never be their priority. Sometimes it's good to be self centered. We gotta look out for ourselves. Because if we don't, then who will. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
So sad and heartbreaking.
Hope you can continue to move to number one for yourself
So raw and touched with bitterness! This was a compelling read! Never being intentionally prioritized by anyone hurts
I have mostly felt like number 4, being middle of 8 kids. So 2 would be a step up the ladder for me. But it is a pile of crap to always being kind and thoughtful when others never appreciate your sacrifices. The trick is to find the place in yourself where you become number 1. Focus on yourself and what it is that you desire of yourself. Even if it means risking being seen as selfish. You can only give of yourself when you arrive at that place within yourself where you accept yourself fully. Those who really care will understand.
This is very sad. Well written, but sad.
Oh, this is heartbreaking about all that time wasted in service of narcissists. Every human should have great value in their own eyes.