No Tears In Heaven

I don't cry as much,

But I don't hide the pain.

My heart has bled so much,

I know life can't be the same.

But I couldn't sit there waiting,

For my world to stop.

I couldn't sit here waiting,

For the pain to stop.

My smiles they aren't fake,

You're name now leaves my lips.

I sometimes call you ditzy,

And have little laughing fits.

This is called healing,

It's the power of love.

I love you so much...

I must heal me.

...because you loved me so much.

Seeing your face...

It hurts,

Buts that's the power of love.

To look at your face,

And remember so much.

No matter how many years pass...

One, two, three...

the next and then more.

Even when I turn 27...28...

You will always be my older sister.

And I'll always miss you,

The fights,

The tears,

Bubbling fire,

Similar fears...

But I'll always be here.

The pain will never stop.

But what was our love,

If now that you're gone...

I didn't feel that pain.

But I cry for me.

I lost you.

You don't cry for you...

There's no tears in heaven...

As Mr. Clapton sings.

But unlike him,

I know,

You'd know my name.

And that's why I can heal,

Even with this pain.

Because he's right.

Time can break your heart.

And Ashley,

I must carry on.

Because he's right.

We don't belong

There in heaven.