(No) Patience

I was blinded

By the sight of

The demise of

My freedom

I was trying

Not to die here

I was lying

To feel numb

I thought this would be the answer

To regain my sense of pleasure

But it all caused was crisis

That I have to pay the price of

When I hold back

I explode

But I can’t relax--

I don’t know

Life is a puzzle and a series of choices

It’s full changes and internal voices

I can’t solve anything overnight

But patience is a virtue, ain’t that right?

I learn, and I grow

And I hope to feel better

But what if I don't

And it just lasts forever?

That can't be so

There's so much I don't know

And there's so much to see

So many opportunities

Possibilities,

Complexities,

And novelties.

My mind

Is truly

One-of-a-kind--

Sue me.