No Lines of Distinction

I feel your arms wrapped around my chest

Your strong, work-hardened hands firmly grasping my wrists

As you crisscross them and

Press my arms tight against me

In a warm, deep embrace

While spooning me closely, so closely

Your leg seemingly casually

Draped over my hip

Pulling me so tightly into you

Protecting me, possessing me, owning me

Wanting me

Until there are no boundaries between us

We melt into each other

There are no lines of distinction

No lines of separation

Just you and me, a merger of souls and hearts

Blending into one

I cannot move; I do not want to move

Yet, I feel your fear and anxiety mixed in with years of love

Many years of love

Millions and millions of years of love

Just so much love

But you are fearful

Why do you think you might lose me?

You fear that I don’t love you

As much as you need me to

And I know why, and it hurts

I’ve gone before; I've disappeared,

I’m always the ghost who slips away in the dark

Always hiding, always running from love

So that you think I don't want you or love you

When in truth I am afraid of my own vulnerability

How helpless and unworthy I feel

I don’t think I deserve you

I don’t think I deserve us

So, you hold me so tight and close, and grasp me

Never wanting to let me go

Your damp breath on the back of my neck

Saying more to me than any words from your lips

This is love

This is real

This has been forever

This will be forever

- Julie O'Hara 2023

Thank you for reading my poem or article. Please feel free to subscribe to see more content and if you are moved to, please consider tipping. In addition, my books can be found at https: Julie O'Hara Bookshop