New Universe

I wish life was easy like before

Running around barefoot

Went up to anyone I could find

And claimed them as mine

No they did not mind

Because friendship was life

But now after all I’ve been through

Oh now my happy ever after

Seems out of sight

Slipping away faster

And I feel that I will never master

This new universe that I’ve been sucked into

I hate that I’ve also become someone new

And wish that I’d only stayed true

For the ceiling is caving in on me

I’m being hurt and I cannot breathe

Can someone please

Can someone tell me

Who is this ugly entity

Who keeps on destroying me

She calls me all these ugly names

And asks me why I’m an idiot

She makes me feel I’m too big

Churns my stomach until I’m sick

What do you want from me

My precious enemy

I scream get away from me

But I cannot escape me

And from me I cannot leave

I’m trapped and no one can hear

There's no one to dry all these tears

I’ve now succumb all of my fears

And am stuck forever waiting for help to

Escape this new universe I’ve been sucked into

I hate as I’ve also become someone new

And wish that I’d only stayed true

But I know I’m my only hope

And have to fight this battle alone

So maybe someday

I will find a way

To feel okay

And conquer

This terror

This hate

This ache

This pain

This new universe that I’ve been sucked into

Because the only one who can paint me blue

Is me and my deeds

And the crushed dreams

Which I don’t pursue because of

The issues I fail to get above

Endlessly all because

Of the lack of faith

In which I face

But shouldn’t

And mustn't

Because I’m of worth

And because I deserve

The world and more

And can conquer anything and everything

Put in front of me and that I see

And forever go on a quest to be

The happiest version of me

To help myself and the world around me too

In this new universe that we’ve been sucked into