My Toxic Lover

The sun is out and I'm inside getting high out of my fucking mind

It's the middle of the summer and I should be at the beach or the mall seems so much funner

But I'm inside with my toxic lover

She tells me that it's okay she's here to stay and take all of the pain that I feel away

Building up the feeling that you thought you've missed

But now you just feel sick

Crushing pills and rolled up bills are all that fill my mind

The agony of staying clean is far too much to hide

And so I take it in and feel that high that I thought I wanted

But now I'm throwing up and realizing it wasn't really worth it