My Mind's Prisoner

I am a prisoner of my own mind.

Stuck in a limbo of thinking and never doing.

Wanting so bad to escape but never dare try.

Unbreakable cuffs sealed tight by my mind.

Instead of daring to escape from my mind’s prison, I hide from my captor.

My insecurities and self doubt are the shackles keeping me from thriving.

I am strapped down and forced to relive memories of my mistakes.

Tortured by the devilish whispers of my past and future failures.

My captor keeps locked away, alone.

Keeping me apart from my family and friends.

Forgetting that it's their love and support that holds the key to unlock me from my mind’s prison.

I find myself in rooms alone more than I do in rooms filled with others.

Unable to break free and connect.

I cannot stop sleeping, sleeping away days that I could have...should have escaped.

Being captive to oneself is the most exhausting thing one can go through without lifting a finger.

I wake from nightmares of failing and losing everything

Only to get out of bed and repeat the torture cycle my mind has planned.

I know now, I mustn’t give up. I cannot give in.

Stealing the keys and breaking free is my only option.

It will not be an easy prison break.

I will come out bruised and scarred.

I will not break free today, and probably not tomorrow.

But the support and love I receive are the lights that clear my path.

It will not be easy, but my mind alone, my captor, cannot stop me from the challenge.