My Life Is A Movie

My life is a movie. Facing ups and downs like an emotional rollercoaster. Acting confident like everything is fine as a front to hide the real pain. Putting on a smile for others. Dealing with ‘when things don’t go as planned’. You should only know the drama that happens behind closed doors. Feeling like a failure when you screw up. Carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders like a heavy burden. Find serenity in the chaos. Keep yourself busy from all the distractions.

Spread love and let peace heal every broken heart. Heal all the thousand bitter, broken parts. Stand up and be counted. Fill up my cup with positivity. The glass is always half full. Choose to be the optimist. Let faith come to you in your need of darkest times to find joy in your soul. Where the dream is just a lifelong goal. The road is paved with good intentions so you must be strong. Life is a gift and we all have a choice. Come and be the best you can be. Cause life is great when you are on your own and find inner peace. I don’t want to hear what others have said to you. Turn down the criticism. Don’t let their words cause you any doubt or inhibition. The negativity doesn’t define your rhythm.

I feel most at peace when I am diving into my own passion. It’s like a floating plane.Find your heart’s desire, and let it become your fashion. I love fashion. I always try to follow the latest trends. Yet, I create my own unique style. I want to be someone that I can be because the music never ends. I want to be someone that you can be proud of but I get so hurt when I hear voices in my head ‘You’re not good enough’ ‘You have no talent’ ‘You’re a failure’ ‘How you expect to be successful?’ etc which fills my mind with doubt and makes me concerned about my future. Never let anyone say you can’t make something out of yourself. Their opinions don’t matter. You are not living to make them happy. Instead make yourself proud.

I am trying to settle me out. The calm before the storm. It’s time for peace to break through where everything falls into place like a puzzle piece. Trust that everything will work out according to plan instead of being lost in a maze of the things you have to face. Block out confusion, self-doubt and pity. Stay strong and carry on. Open the door and you will see there’s a way to escape the ground you walk on. Calm down your nerves, ignore distractions. Collect your thoughts and breath in the fresh air deeply. Trust your instinct. Stop preparing for the worst let the whispers guide you and be convinced that you don’t have anything left unhinged. No need to be afraid when it comes to the point of conflict. We will be just fine its a mystery to a life of pain. My heart’s at ease, no more battles to inflict. Don’t go against the grain it’s the only way to stay capable. Your every move is the pulse. I will shine, unbreakable.

The waves of the ocean will carry you to a safe place far from the barren waste. Where the waves of the beach would carry you far from the city. You let everything fade away and become care free. Free from the pain of the past and the future of the past. Where the sky meets the sea and the sun shines bright down on you and surrenders to a warm summer day. Where the sky is blue and our dreams come true. Where the clouds grow together and we fall down on the sand leaving our footprints behind.. When you finally reach the shore you will make a last stand. We will find home in a place of love where we always feel alive.

Sometimes we find peace within a person. Who really cares about all our troubles. One that would teach us how to love. One that could show us how to smile again and will stand by our side no matter what. To lift us up no matter how hard we want to give up. An individual that will help us see the truth and know we can trust in ourselves. You are my comfort zone. Here we will always know that every moment is just the beginning.

My life is NOT a movie open for every spectator to watch to gossip and spread unnecessary rumors to try to hurt my reputation or wonder ‘what will happen next’ after season 2 episode 5. Cut out all the drama and bullshit. I know what I should be. I should be an independent woman. It should not be hard to find new ways to breathe and find a calmness in my heart. This should be a start in a world so broken. Let peace be the token. Time to get up off the couch and get up with the adults. I should not be afraid to take plenty of risks and to keep my eyes open wide. Need to be able to see clear. My hope is and my life is still alive in a constant reminder that the world has a slightly different language for me. Love is the glue that can heal and set me free. Let peace shine like a symphony. No distractions or stress. I should not be overwhelmed by life.