My fight with monster called Feeling

Everything’s collapsing inside,

like a monster crashing,

devouring me piece by piece.

Feelings fight — who is right, who is wrong?

A war raging in my mind.

I can’t calm them.

I’m lost in a deep, dark forest,

trapped with my own nightmare.

I don’t know how to be myself,

how to show love,

how to breathe without fear.

When I love too deeply,

the monster awakes —

obsession, addiction,

I don’t even know.

But it terrifies me.

I’m afraid these nightmares

will wound the ones I love.

I don’t know what to call this curse,

only that I must destroy it

before it destroys me.