My Every Nothing

My Every Nothing

Emergence, from the hole I dug for myself

Eyes slowly open, to a newer brand of hell

Blinding darkness in my own pitch black sky

A cloud over my head, acid rain as I cry

Silent screams that coincide

Hanging on to the fears I wish I could hide

Shaking my fists in anger, screaming at the skies above

For letting loose, the only girl I love

Entering into my own duality

Beliefs are clearly fallacy

Without my queen I am no king

Alone at home, with my every nothing

These tears are my fault still

It won’t go away till my dreams are fulfilled

How could I be so delusional high up on a shelf

I could never forgive myself

I said it’s overwhelming, too soon, too much

When in reality you just cared that much

The darkness over head as I’m locked in my prison cell

Driving you away, created my selfish hell

Entering into my own duality

Beliefs are clearly fallacy

Without my queen I am no king

Alone at home, with my every nothing

The chatter in my head, it’s all the same as before

Should have seen the smile and known there’s so much more

Telling myself to do what’s wrong again

Talk to her, letting go was my fatal sin

In my head the voices cry and the pain let me know

You gave me your heart and I shouldn’t have let it go

No excuse for the way I broke your heart

It’s my turn now, should’ve held you from the start

The chains rattling in my head

You tried to tell me but I didn’t listen

I hurt you and that’s what hurts the most

Swore I’d protect you

Swore I’d hold you

The duality in my screaming mind

And now the fear, the fear that you’re too far gone

Entering into my own duality

Beliefs are clearly fallacy

Without my queen I am no king

Alone at home, with my every nothing