Mother = Stranger

Looking into your eyes

I see that something is wrong

I have known for some time what

You've neglected for too long

It seems you are never there

You never knew me, never tried

And as I got older, you still never saw me

The few the good memories we had have died

I feel as if you and I are stranger s

I'm not even good enough to be a friend

You hate the sight of me, hate being near me

Just cut to the chase let's get to the end

We may have had problems

But some things just can’t be denied

So if you expect me to stick around

Then just keep telling yourself more lies

I have never done anything to hurt you

Yet cock was more important and always came before me

Sure food, clothes, and a roof over my head was good

But to give me love like a real Mom, that you could never be

Its always poor pitiful you , the bad things done to you

Nothing happened to anyone, you were always the victim

Yet none of you siblings could remember your trauma

So tell me why is it abuse to be the oldest looking out for them?

Do you ever think good of me

Did you ever even want me

Why so angry, so negative and cold

Why can't I ever seem to make you happy

I hate loving you because loving you hurts

What is the point if love is not returned

Over 30 years I have reached out you

But now my heart is blackened from being burned

The day that you see the error of your ways

I can’t promise that I will be here

Secretly I hope one day you read this

And it brings you a world of fear

Fear knowing that I am a better me without you

Fear knowing that I don’t want or need you anymore

Fear that I will forget you and see you as a stranger

Fear of the silence after I walk out your door