Masqueraded Madness

Lately it seems I’ve got these feelings inside me,

Just an endless list of emotions always colliding.

I fathom life is hard but I want to shut out the sun and close all my curtains;

When all I feel is pain, please, tell me what is the purpose?

I try so hard to be what everyone wants,

The caring, intelligent girl who’s so nonchalant.

What their eyes don’t witness is the darkness inside,

The constant avidity of wanting to die.

This veneer of serenity is mostly perfected,

But there are times when my unhappiness in nearly detected.

To those who care please try not to worry

For one day I hope to not be in such a hurry....

.... to vanish.