Deluge

I have blood on my hands though it is not mine;

I fear it’s safe to say I crossed a line.

I did not mean for things to come to this,

But she wouldn’t seal her fucking lips.

It began as any other day, the laughs and I love you’s,

Watching her in the morning sun as she slid on her shoes.

We kissed in the doorway wanting to linger

But parted for work knowing we’d see one another at dinner.

As the day came to a close I stopped by the store

To pick her favorite wine and perhaps for me, the liquor.

My keys turned the lock and I opened the door

To the aroma of steak while my jaw dropped to the floor.

I crept up behind her, my hands yearning for the touch of her skin

But as I wrapped my arms around her she made it seem like a sin.

“Welcome home honey,” she said to me.

“It’s honestly a puzzle in my mind how you have the audacity

To walk in with your muddy shoes freshly wet from the rain.

I hope you realize you’ll be the one to clean those stains.”

A sigh escaped my lips as I let go of her

To turn and place our drinks on the counter,

Taking my shoes off to clean them in the sink.

My wife decides to use the time to become a shrink.

“What’s on your mind? What’s wrong? What has you down?”

Normally this would be nice but caused me to frown.

My lack of response caused her to spiral

And before I knew it I was her enemy, a rival.

“When I ask you a question answer me, don’t just ignore my inquiry!

You have this disposition that’s making me wary.

I swear lately you’re showing no emotion,

And it seems you’re losing all devotion.”

I took a deep breath to gather my thoughts

While my fist tightened around a bottle I bought.

“Hello? Anyone home? God you’re just like your father...

Fuck, honestly why do I even bother?”

That’s when it changed, my eyes saw red.

She crossed the line first and now she’s fucking dead.

“I’m not my father!” I screamed.

I spun around with the Tequila in hand, my mind tearing at the seams.

Her eyes widened as she whimpered “I didn’t mean it,”

But sorry was too late because my brain already decided upon the crime I was about to commit.

Without thinking I smashed the bottle across her skull

Knowing now our vows were null.

The rage took over and I began slicing her skin

With the broken bottle, my monsters victorious in this sin.

Now I sit on the pavement covered in her blood

Looking back on the times she made me feel loved.

I cry silently but nobody sees

For the rain blends with the tears on my cheeks.

I hear the sirens in the distance, they’re coming for me.

I wonder if I run now, could I continue to flee?

Rain, rain, don’t go away.

Stay to see me through another day.

Rain, rain, please wash away

This blood, these tears and the atrocity that led me astray.