Love Note

You know, maybe I should write my self my own love notes. I mean, who knows me better than me?

Is it weird to want a love note? Maybe a secret admirer? Now that's a part I've played for several people I've known , just to make them them know that someone cared. I have a friend that's done that for me and it's very sweet. I've left baskets on doorsteps with cards signed " your secret admirer" just to give them a boost in life. Everyone wants to feel wanted, whether they admit it or not.

And maybe, just maybe, we need to start with wanting OUR selves . Why would anyone else want us if we don't want ourselves, right? Some make poor choices and then decide to settle into it, while their fountain of hope and joy is cascading away, waiting.

Some let life pass them by because the stagnant pool doesn't make waves, ever oblivious to the lack of life-giving oxygen in that stagnantly still pool. The life being sucked out of them, but they're comfortable there. And they weakly smile when someone traverses time zones, realms, worlds, universes, to drag them to a pool with a simple but elegant fountain spewing oxygen all over the place. Not me, oh yeah, not me.

I want the oxygen. I want life. I could not care less about material things, I want the splenderous joy of Life , I want the torrid sunsets and the Sonrises reminding me that I'm not finished here. I want someone to look at me and say "I saw a Light glowing from your face" ( a Pastor's wife told me that) or " why are you not freaked out right now?" ( true story) .

I take life seriously. I see things others do not. But it does not mean that I do not want to have fun, and I don't want the fun to end. Age is just a number, I have heard. So I'm hopeful that my years will be used productively.

So.. my love note ...

My Dearest Colleen,

Take a deep breath. Now, take another one. You know, I love it when you do that ( you say My name lol) You are fearfully and wonderfully made, I knew you before you were formed. Girl, you are made in My image so quit doubting yourself. Trust Me, you are enough. I love you more than Life itself.

always yours,

Your Father