Love me different

i guess you can say i'm difficult

or so i've been told but that just

sounds like it's coming from someone who

doesn't know how to handle me my

apologies if you find me a bit too

challenging

i mean

i'm sorry

i'm sorry that my past ptsd from my past

relationships causes me to think that

you can't be good to me you say i'm

being a detective but i just think i'm

being protective excuse me if my tone of

voice is a bit aggressive i'm just

reiterating the fact that i was never

the one to mess with

i mean

i'm sorry

i let it happen again i let past

experiences where shitty ass men dictate

the way i interact with you and i really

want to trust but it's obvious i still

have some issues i need to get through i

never said that loving me was going to

be easy

but if you're going to

do not excuse my assertiveness for

inability to be submissive i just know

what i want so i'm making sure you

understand the mission listen

i

know that i am no walk in the park

i am a lot to handle and sometimes i'm

overly sensitive so some days you may

feel like i'm not even with you

but on those days i need you to make

sure that you don't take it personal i'm

not saying i won't work with you i'm

saying

i'm saying that sometimes i need a

little more reassurance than normal

i have crippling anxiety that i don't

necessarily speak about so i hope it

doesn't bother you when i ask you to

bear with me i hope i'm not asking for

you for too much when i ask if you still

like me because last night while we were

asleep you let go of me a little bit too

quickly

paranoid

i know

i never said it was easy to love me

but my love is rewarding so if you're

going to

do not mistake my need to be loved out

loud for insecurities trust me i know

that i have wife written all over me my

table is always full

so if you're going

do not excuse

do not mistake it for insecurities i

know that i have wife written all over

me my table is always full

so if you're going to sit down and enjoy

this meal with me i need to ensure that

you're willing to learn how to love me

properly

and i've never been one that was afraid

to speak so

and days where i'm a bit too quiet

or it seems like i'm a bit out of it

hold me because anxiety doesn't always

tell me why she's visiting

hold me because anxiety doesn't always

tell me why she's visiting

and tell me every time that you think

i'm beautiful because compliments from

you feel more like confirmation that

it's going to be a good day

i want you to love me enough to teach me

how to love you and i'm not saying teach

me the basics i'm saying teach me the

love that was uniquely made for you i

was uniquely made for you

tell me you love me

tell me you miss me at 2 p.m when you're

busy

you know in the middle of your day when

you have a whole bunch of thoughts at

the forefront of your brain remind me

that i'm still important enough to think

about in the middle of chaos

if i am your girl then i need to feel

like i am more than just a friend no i

am not being needy

no

i am not being needy i need you to be

here with me

i never said it was easy to love me i

know we're grown but i still like being

babied and i still want to feel like

you're crushing on me even after you've

had me

i never said it was easy to love me but

if you're still going to

then i need to know that you're willing

to love me properly

thank you