Lost Eyes

I walked into my regular shop,

I had been going in there for years before

you appeared,

You stared at me from behind the counter

with lost eyes,

You noticed I was married,

And you looked more lost,

You know I've been through decades of pain,

You've known me since I was a teenager,

But you left me in early adulthood;

At a time when I needed you most.

What was I supposed to do?

Live a life of continuous torment while

I waited years for you to come back?

My dearest friend;

I still remember the past before when we

were close,

You could have had it all,

But you chose not to;

You chose to run because she broke your heart,

You chose not to take a chance with me,

Denied your feelings,

Even though you knew we wanted to be together,

Now, you know I am married,

Yet even after not seeing me for decades you

still insist that you love me,

Though you couldn't stay during the years I needed

you most,

Yes;

I understand,

You had to go away and change your life,

But you never stayed in touch with me,

You disappeared like a lone wolf,

Afraid of being bitten twice,

I never saw you again until now.

My life changed because it had to,

I couldn't take another decade of

pain, torment, and loneliness;

I deserve to be loved;

I didn't deserve to be trapped like a prisoner

inside my own heart,

Waiting for your return,

I am happy now,

No longer miserable,

No longer tormented,

I have a family,

And a man who loves me,

I have something I have always wanted.

Never the less;

Those early days of our friendship have not

passed me by,

You can have it, if you open the door and make

an appearance,

But;

The question is,

Will you learn to accept that I'm settled?

As you always said,

"It is what it is."