Looking outside your window.

I never knew how to write poetry.I always felt like poetry made no sense at all and was for weak people who couldn't speak up and had to write their problems in a sheet of paper.I now understand why.but I don't have any problems.all I do is just look outside my window and wonder why life is so grey and boring. I could stay next to my window for hours looking at birds flying by and kids playing with mud and giggling.and that makes me sad not because I wanna do it but because those same kids will go through the same as me in the future. The future I think about a lot maybe I will grow to sit next to my window wishing I were them,envying.I look outside my window,its never sunny.Life when you were a kid was sunny and colorful,now I look outside my window and see the reflection of myself.I don't like the way I look so I put on make up .I look outside my window and I put my face against it, I see water dropping but its no rain, rain never dries out of my eyes,no matter what I try I always choose to cry and it sounds stupid , I'm no cupid I've never loved I've always hated......I'm faded.