light heart lost mind

wondering what to do...

feeling sad but not understanding why, thinking of past things that hurt me inside. seeing so much death in the world that it seems meaningless to mourn.

feeling numb to feelings that used to be there and be strong. becomeing passive about life, struggling to get by because of it. seeing others cry when they become sad or happy or angry and feeling jealous that they feel so strongly that they can cry.

still feeling but not enough, wanting to expirience the world but am limited by the state of it. watching fear hold back the lives of people, watching sadness and sickness take them.

missing out on the expirences others before me had, seeing younger people suffer the sadness brought to them by the world. seeing them struggle while being so young.

life is hurting, ripping at my mind and my body. wondering the purpose of it all. knowing i should stay and see if it ever gets better. spending my whole life wondering if it will.

snowy

in the night the sky cried, the cold of planet turned the tears cold and softly they feel to the earth landing gently on the trees, the grass and the fallen leaves. then the morning came the snow was deep and the people moved it aside. the tears werent enough to stop them from working. not spending time to stop and look at the beauty of the snow. always busy. People Are Always Busy. never having the time to do what they want, to relax to take a breathe. But then, then. the world did stop. people tucked themselves away, they had time to love one another to enjoy their time. but some were kept apart, unable to see one another. But the planet could take a deep breath to heal even when the people couldnt.