Letter 05/01/21

05/01/21

Dear Unnamed,

I keep thinking about the old times and how good it used to be. Do you remember how wonderful we had it? Do you ever want it back? Was life just what got in our way or did your feelings change? You showed me no respect at the end, but I can’t tell if you ever stopped loving me or if you were just overwhelmed with it all. If you never stopped loving me, I would like to believe that we could make things work. Maybe. But, again, you didn’t show me any respect, so wouldn’t I be showing myself no respect if I went back to you? It’s a complicated situation and I have a lot of confusing emotions. I want you back. But I don’t know if it’s truly you or what we had. I think it might be you I want back, but I might just be yearning for what we used to have.

Do you still want me? Do you still love me? Do you think we could get back on track or am I just hoping for the impossible? I know you haven’t been doing well and I’m worried about you. I haven’t reached out though because if you wanted me, you would tell me. And you haven’t. Maybe that should be answer enough for me. But I just can’t let go. I want to be there for you and hold you and kiss the hurt away. I want to make things ok again for you. But you would tell me if that’s what you wanted. So maybe I am just going is circles for nothing. Maybe it is time to move on. But I can’t. I’ve been trying. I’ve been talking to people. I’ve been setting up dates with other people. I haven’t gone on any of them, but I’ve been planning. It feels wrong, though. You feel right. You’ve always felt right. But maybe it’s time to let go.

Love,

Yours