Just Knock

There isn’t much

I cannot say,

but

you found the one thing anyway.

You showered me

in gold

and sparkles.

Fed me oysters with champagne.

Promised me

the sun,

the moon.

When clearly

it was way too soon.

You gave me

everything

and all

that you had

always been longing for.

I told you

once

and twice

and more –

my love is quieter than yours.

I want

the whispers.

Please –

don’t yell.

Just

a quiet knock,

no doorbell.

I dim the lights,

hug goodbye.

Just kiss me.

Slowly.

Don’t ask why.

You looked at me

and seemed to care.

Seemed to truly understand.

I take the blame –

I really do –

once again

I let you fool me

into thinking

things will change.

My disappointment,

loud

and wide.

Again

you’d pushed my wish aside.

Your words were blaring,

seemed as if

the Caps Lock

and Ctrl B were hit.

'I LOVE YOU'

written in the sky

was your last and final try.

I looked at you

and realized –

I love me, too.

And left for good.