Just Another Day

As the morning rises

I sit here face to face

Confronting my obstacles

No one else could face

I still rise and put a smile on my face

No one can erase the things that i have done

The things that I have seen, been a witness

To the sadness, melancholy,

Then tears drip down my face

but only in the shadows,

Because I still have to smile,

Thank God that I saw another day

Although deep inside, I re-live the past,

Rise again, then pretend nothing ever happened,

Forget the pain the stains that no one could erase

At least not in my lifetime

Sometimes I’m am afraid

To face what’s within,

See the blood, lust, the stains the I once craved

The people that I hurt, just because I was reflecting the hurt that was once spun on my faint

The cards that I was dealt

No else could have felt this burden

How quaint that still I have

Still, I rise and come face to face

With our most common enemy

I wonder if she will come today

I question him every day

Will today be the day

That other stranger may come instead

Tell you, “oh, you look nice; life isn’t that bad,”

“The youth of life, it couldn’t be that bad.”

But then the blood will run

Red,

Run black,

then my eyes will

Run back,

The smell will be sweet ammonia

Such a gas-ley bitter taste

And then today there will be no

Teeth from ear to ear

No Cheeks seating high

Because today I would no longer have to pretend

The other side of has one,

God, I pray today won’t be the day …

That today won’t be the day …