It’s A Wrap

The day destined for the end of the show has finally arrived,

The cast alone in their feelings of mixed blessings,

Nothing lasts forever, as we learned through the burns and betrayals,

There’s always that moment of understanding, when the end is facing us down.

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Thank you — thank you for the lessons you taught me,

The scar-tissue you forced me to adorn,

The river of tears that hounds my memories,

And the barbs and thorns you gifted me; those that made me forever bleed.

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You have made me into the woman I have become,

One of strength, fortitude and honest in my self-worth,

Built me into a force to be reckoned with,

And made me the better woman, ready for the day when I finally meet my person.

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You instilled in me the values that I will insist upon from my future,

You gave me the rules and boundaries I’ve now set,

The armour I wear to protect me from those traits I will no longer tolerate,

And hammered into me the red flags I’ll walk away from forever-more.

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I now know that these years were nothing but a lie,

A falsity of your imagination, your control,

Teaching me that your love was not real,

As you never had the capacity to love me as I so rightly deserved.

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Powerful lessons indeed,

For you showed me how not to love,

You taught me all the things I do not want from a partner,

And armed me with the knowledge needed to no longer accept that which I do not deserve.

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For years I had to be the man in the relationship,

Because you couldn’t step up,

You didn’t have it in you to support us,

To protect us; you couldn’t show up for us!

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I had to bury my femininity,

Forget the soft side of my womanhood,

Fight for life on my own; day in and day out,

I was always a ‘single’ married woman; always alone in this marriage.

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There’s no shame in admitting defeat!

We failed — wasted decades on fruitless years,

Always believing the show must go on,

Until I understood just a few short months ago, that we were replaying the same episodes over and over again.

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The weight off my shoulders that day in December when I finally yelled ‘cut’,

Was the day of monumental emotional growth,

A day realising you had nothing more to teach me,

And it was the ultimate time to organise the final curtain call.

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Happy Divorce Day!