Irony

One of the biggest ironies of my life is the fact that I absolutely love seeing others smile while I can't even fake a laugh. Or always being sorrounded by people and still feel so alone. Do everything I can just to make someone happy and drown more and more in my sadness.

I tell myself that I don't know what else I can do to stop my feelings but I confess that in the past few days I'm not even trying anymore. If it was up to me I wouldn't even get out of the bed in the morning. It actually is up to me, but eventhough I had given up of everything, I refuse to give up on me.