Internalized Shame

I've watched a good man spiral, It's so very hard to see. Went from cool to holy shit, No way that this could be. One minute went from normal, The next straight out his mind. From break up, drugs, oppression, Himself he cannot find. Starts when he's a child, Told daily he's no good. To seventeen years inside, The state, different kind of hood. His whole life know what he did? Internalized that shit. Stockpiled way down deep, His defense, bottomless pit. Then there's our recent breakup, Which puts him over the edge. He snapped, completely lost it, I pushed him over the fucking ledge. To internalize your shame, So serious yes it is. Nothing to take lightly, Takes lives and almost his. Then drugs became involved, Only making matters worse. It feels just like a nightmare, Can't wake because I'm cursed. It's like a nervous breakdown, The symptoms all the same. That's what I thought it was, Myself the one to blame. Just want to put it out there, Mental health it ain't no joke! It mostly stays all dormant, Till the bear gets one last poke. We need to help each other, We can't keep it all inside. Need to cope with all the feelings, Learn to take it all in stride. You can't bottle up emotions, For years and years and years. It just sits in there and feeds, Off pain and rage and fears. Feel lost cause I can't help him, Feel I have to take the blame. Although it's neither's fault, He internalized his shame.

Internalized shame...Google it.