the cost of survival
can leave you in the red
they don't tell you that growing up
or maybe they do
and it was just me who didn't know
I had no clue
that always being ready
to flee or fight
could leave a body running
like an 85 Ford Econoline
whose front end got hit by a train
every skill mastered in childhood
meant for protection
has ended up causing more harm
than I'd ever imagined
than I was even aware of
for a long, long time
the all hours cortisol free for all
in my brain
has begun to wear it thin
from faded memories
to fogs as opaque as snow
no one told me survival
would cost me so much life
with no options for return or refund
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Lolly Vieira
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Comments (4)
I can really feel what youβre saying. I can relate to the constant fight-or-flight, and how exhausting it is.
This is very strong and so true. Nobody tells us just how complicated life can be - especially the older you get. Excellent writing Lolly!
Too familiar and yet comforting β€οΈ
Omggg, this was soooo true! Many of us would be able to relate to this. Loved your poem!