In this dance of love, what shall I do?

In solitude, my love's away,

A yearning grows with each passing day.

His embrace, my newfound drug,

In his absence, emotions tug.

Cuddling close, almost too much,

Yet in his absence, a longing touch.

A night apart, the ache returns,

Loneliness in my heart churns.

To move in together, a thought so near,

Building a life, shedding a tear.

His love for me, a gaze profound,

In giggles and quirks, sweet love is found.

Tears welled up when I nearly departed,

A moment shared, emotions restarted.

Dark past revealed, vulnerability shown,

In comforting me, his love was known.

Harmony reigns in our shared space,

Anger's rare, a gentle embrace.

But revelations cast shadows dark,

Ghosts at night, leave a haunting mark.

My sister's doubts, a clouded view,

Lies and gaslighting, my heart askew.

Staring blankly as I weep,

Leaving me alone, emotions deep.

Substance abuse, a haunting claim,

Blocking out ghosts, chasing the same.

A desire for family, a shift within,

Drinking less, a chance to begin.

Through doubts and fears, our love does weave,

Closer now, my heart does cleave.

Yet the shadow lingers, a constant fear,

Will he revert when ties draw near?

Marriage, children, a life entwined,

Doubt persists within my mind.

A sister's worry, a gut feeling true,

In this dance of love, what shall I do?