Things I can, but must never, tell you

In a perfect world, where feelings didn’t matter, I could have loved you

In a secluded house, just you and me

Without my family telling me there’s something wrong

Without the knowledge of future children, and the impact this would have on them

Without me feeling lonely and trapped, like a bird in a cage

If I could just fly there sometimes, and then leave again, without any impact on your feelings

Feelings of loss and confusion

If I could give you the comfort you so desperately need

That I so desperately need

If I could just hold you, and tell you everything will be okay

Just you and me, nobody knowing

If I could just materialise, like an angel, out of thin air

Only my embrace, and you welcoming it

If I could truly get you to see

Not just you, but your inner self

The part of you that is locked away, even to you

Your inner child

Let him know that I never wish him any harm

Let him know that everything will be okay

That he is safe

That you are safe

To truly heal you, from the core

But I know, there is no way for me to tell you this

So goodbye my love

And may you still find that peace

Sending you this thought

Hoping it can reach you

That you can feel this after all

Without me actually being there

I will always love you

Goodbye