in the wrong place

what looked appealing

that seemed so filling

offered no healing

kept you reeling

prevented you from dealing

with the current situation at hand

I thought it was not the plan

that love was for me

I ventured into a dreadful place

because of feeling displaced

on long term disability

but i knew I did not want to be free

so I settled

with fate meddled

being vulnerable

and carnal

I should have viewed

my circumstances differently

miscued by temptations

on the outside looking lovely

rushing in

acting haphazardly

wanting to belong

messed up

fallen prey

by the dainties all dressed up

never did see

my peace they would disrupt

desire can be a fire

burning out of control

arson to a heart and soul

gasoline intentionally ignited

the flame never subsided

residue and debris the silent pain

should have stayed in my lane

a sweet treat has left me living in vain

misguideddid not properly do me

I wish my urges I would have restra

and because mthe residue and debris is pain