In the wild Den of the workforce.

Growing up, I never really had a hard time fitting in from preschool to around middle school. During those times, I just never really thought about it or cared. All my thoughts were filled with just having a fun time. Playing on the playgrounds, being silly, laughing with my friends and teachers. However, as I got older, I started to become more aware of my surroundings, and the people who I hung out. Some started to become toxic, while others became distant. At the time, I didn't mind or let that get me down. I just moved on. Fast forward to my nineteenth birthday, and I finally got my first job. Well call this job Mendies. In the beginning, it was not too bad however as the months went by I worked at a place where I dreaded. This is how it all began.

Working in darkness is what I do best.

No one knows my name or my many identities.

One day I’m Samatha the next day, I’m Marie.

One moment I’m your friend the next your enemy.

Which do you choose? Hire me or kill me.

I will spill your secrets for the right price. Even if we started as allies.

It’s unfortunate but nothing new. Some hate the people involved . Others say that’s the price of the dangerous game.

Money, alcohol, disguise and lies is nothing new in this profession.

Some people were taken in under certain circumstances or enjoy the exhilaration of it all.

Lust, love, betrayal, and enemies are all part of the job. Will you fall into the cycle of your weaknesses or find a way to be two steps ahead of your foes.

Mind games, plans, corruption, and dirty secrets. It is a lot of toxic baggage.

Can you handle it, or will you break?

Can you survive, or will you die?

Do you find it joyful and exciting or dread and shameful?

And again, I must say this is nothing new it is all just a part of a dangerous game.

Some make it out with their lives and turn over a new leaf. Others aren’t so lucky. Having to hide and watch their backs every time they go out.

Getting paranoid with every interaction.

It’s a hard life to live, and not everyone can do it.

Killing, stealing, blackmail, and torture. It’s all in the job description, and it’s absolutely the worst.

So you might ask what is this job that I do.

Well, I certainly can’t say I don’t know your plans or your employer. We might be allies or foes. Let’s hope we don’t meet while on the job.

I would hate to have to dispose of you.

So tell me, what do you think the is job?

For Mendes being my first job, it wasn't the greatest. The managers were rude, and the coworkers. Everyone was mean to each other or showed aggression when they were irritated with other employees. It felt uncomfortable and strange. Especially when managers or employees try to make something normal or have a situation slide knowing it's not right or a part of the protocol of the job.

I have had many situations where I felt like I don't fit in. However, getting my first job has been the most impactful and learning experience I had with life in general. No matter what you do or join there are times where you’ll just won't fit in and that's ok. There's only one you, it's best to make the most of it and use not fitting in as an advantage. Who cares that you don't fit in. There have been multiple times a successful person does not fit in. That's what makes that person stand out. There's no shame. As long as you're comfortable, that's all that matters.