In the Name of Love

It’s true that you cannot love without deeply loving yourself.

I sought love all the time,

I sought it everywhere but where it actually was.

I only found it when I came home.

Not just within myself,

But within the arms of those who had been there all along.

Because before I came home,

my mind rejected the notion of love.

It was repulsed by it at a fundamental level.

The fear and shame within me masked itself with lies

and bizarre rationalizations...

Rejection felt like love

And Love felt like rejection.

See, I broke a heart because I failed to accept my own.

And people ask: “where’s the boy?”

The boy is off doing a thing,

I’ll find him when I can see him

And I’ll see him when I can see me.