if this was a movie.

last night, I watched the movie of us

I saw the alternate ending

without the tears that destroyed my walls

or the compassion that never broke down yours

I heard chiming, the beautiful sound of laughter

the strums of a guitar, notes only meant for me

the sweet aroma of cookies filled my nose and I swear

I could almost feel your hand in mine.

my eyelids fluttered

and my mind flashed to

a snow white gown

scattered flower petals

a glittering rock

and then you press rewind

go back to the messy words shared

back to the dagger-sharp silence

to the problems laid out like pieces of a puzzle

only nothing fit together

and that's the saddest ending I could imagine