I Want to Be Everything That I'm Not

“I want to be everything that I’m not”

Coloured pills and blackened lungs is what my generation is made of and the fact we romanticise mental illness and addictions like it’s beautiful is heart breaking. We vision bruises as galaxies and blood has a beautiful calming affect as it trickles out our noses when we snort cocaine like we’re rich while we make ourselves poor by risking what we have because we don’t appreciate the things we have because we’re too busy focusing on the things we don’t have.

“Babe, you’re beautiful”

We break from young with no clue of where the fuck we went wrong or how or why. We’re trapped in a loop of memories forever searching for the memory of when we were innocent and pure and didn’t spit poison blacker than black. We learn to hate the world and everyone in it because the people who couldn’t see our worth crushed our hearts as easily as putting a cigarette out.

“I’m not beautiful, I’m worthless”