I try to live, but...

I try to speak, but I'm voiceless

I try to think, but I can't hear anything besides desperation

I try to move, but I'm stuck

I try to escape, but my thoughts always end up finding me

I try to live, but...

I mean, do I?

Do I really try?

There was I time that I actually tried do live

But nowadays it seems more like a survival experience which my only goal is not to die

And its not like I don't wanna live anymore, because I do, seriously

But living like this it’s so stressful

All the overthinking, the sleepless nights, the oversleeps nights, the crisis, the headaches, the allergies, body ache... it's too much

God knows how much I tried

But now I’m just... tired.