Deepest thoughts

Lost

Confuse

Sad?

I don’t know anymore

My thoughts invade me, take me, knock me out

Desperation takes over

And I, strengthless, surrender

I wanted to be strong, resilient, invulnerable

But I’m not

I don’t feel like myself anymore

When I look into the mirror I don’t see me, I see another person, and this person is trying to defeat me

And I try to fight, I really do

But honestly sometimes is easier to just give up, and I blame myself everyday for doing that

Seems like i am in the eye of the hurricane, watching everything happen around me

Making it look like I'm peaceful when i'm actually a mess