I Think of You and Remember
In memory of a bad breakup which I can now look back on and smile
I think of you and remember,
the summer when all we had was hope and each other
the melody of our shared breaths
how I tasted lyrics when we kissed
the way your touch left fingerprints on my soul.
I think of you and remember,
hustlin' by day and groovin' by night
putting our two nickels together to make a dime
putting our minds together to make a rhyme
trying to save our people
with rap bars and poetic verses
spittin' higher consciousness over guitar riffs and tight beats.
You became Horus in my eyes
and when the world tried to crucify you,
I was ready to be your Aset-
fly down on wings of love and save you
with the power of my divine womanhood.
I think of you and remember,
when it all started to come undone
one day I realized that I was pretending
that you loved me back
I was making love, you were having sex
I could dream of you with my eyes open,
but got only a passing glance in return.
'Move like the wind' was your motto,
never let anyone tie you down
stay two steps ahead of commitment,
keep your options open just in case
You never said this to me of course
It was what you didn't say that echoed the loudest
You were afraid of someone coming between you and the music
but I never asked you to make a choice
and how could you expect to start a revolution chorus
with only your voice?
I held on for as long as I could
thinking that I'd rather have part of you than not at all
but a part couldn't make me whole
and pieces just lets you know something is broken.
There will never be enough bars or verses, hooks or beats
to describe what it took for me to walk away
I cried tears like the Nile overflowing its banks,
as if Osiris had come back to life
and was carrying my heart to the underworld.
I fell apart every night
and put myself back together every day
I replayed memories, looking for clues
wondering how I heard music where you heard silence
how I felt love where you felt lust
how I saw a future where you saw a moment.
I think of you and I will always remember,
the summer when all we had was hope and each other
the melody of our shared breaths,
how I tasted lyrics when we kissed
the way your touch left fingerprints on my soul.
I think of you and remember,
even as I let go, I remember
even as I let go, I hold on...
I think of you and remember.
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Alana Tutwiler
She/her. A mother, daughter, sister, poet, music lover, introvert. Find me on Twitter @Renaissance818 and Instagram @geechee_island_girl. If you like my writing, please leave a heart :)
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