I Survived

This pain I can’t erase

Every time I close my eyes I see your face

What a disgrace because I want to forget you,

Don’t want any recollection of what I been through

I want to forget who

Bruised my heart and weakened my soul

No,

You don’t get to control my life anymore

But, yet

This pain still lingers on like sweet perfume

Please,

I want to be immune to this pain

Please,

Save me from the aches and shakes I endure daily

I’m just asking please

Let these nightmares fade

My subconscious won’t let me get away

My soul is oozing from the acid poured on my wounds that you told me would heal it

No, you lied

Now I have to deal with reconciling my heart & soul

The things you tried to break & control

But no you did not win

My friend you did not win

I stand tall among all and I will tell you again

You did not win

Yes,

There was a time when you broke me

Almost chocked me

Scolded me

Molded me into a monster

Abused me

Used me

Mocked me

Yes,

It shocked me

As I stared at a dark shadow

Realizing it was me

Mad at my myself

I had become lonely

Suicidal

In denial

Trusting

Too trusting

Giving away my love and receiving nothing

I was alone

Lost from home

Roaming

I had grown to be everything you wanted but you never wanted me

You wanted a slave

Someone to behave

Then one day came when the goin got tough

You left my side

Enough was enough

I had turned into a burden

No more could you use me

So you threw me away

Like I was some sort of floozy

But now

I am out

But you see

I am now whole

I love myself and deep inside my soul

I am whole

You won the battle

But my friend I won the war

I am now whole

I am restored

I am a new

You did not win

I speak truth

I stand tall among all and say it again

You did not win....I did

I survived