I Still Need You

Mom fell and broke her hip today.

That woman’s a saint, not a sinner,

so it’s a case of You attacking Your own again, I figure.

I don’t want to point my finger and act like I know all,

but I’ve lived my life thinking Your plan would get us through.

Now I’m not so sure.

I need You.

When I don’t want You.

When I don’t like You.

When I don’t even want to think about You.

I need You.

When I scream out for the hell You’ve put me through,

And I’d run away, but You’ve not even left me my own two feet,

Like the air I breathe and the food I eat,

I still need You.

Another baby came and went today.

We’re just trying to do Your will in every way,

but we’re running into wall after wall after lousy wall.

How can I trust You? How can I think You’ve got good plans for me?

This isn’t at all what we hoped for.

Now my heart is torn.

Every day, there’s something I don’t understand.

A tornado wiped out a home of a boy who’ll never stand.

Believers met their end in a place where they came just to call on Your name.

You took my Dad before my successes came.

One day it’s all going to add up,

but for today, I’ve just had enough.